TMS Treatment Day 16

Jo (of the study I’m glad I did not do) was my tech today.  Session kind of sucked, I was tired and nauseous (stress?  meds) and thought I might faint.  But it’s over so yay.

Met with Dr Ellis.  Nothing new.

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TMS Experience: Days 13 and 14

Day 13:  Anna was my tech.  It hurt, since I had had 3 days off.   No sneezing, though.  I asked Anna if I should be concerned about the fact I was menustrating and she said just to watch for mood swings and irritability….k.

Day 14:  New Tech,  Kylie.  She was nice.  More interactive than some.  It still hurts.  She reminded me I’m still in the early phase.   ‘

No change in mood.  Becoming frustrated.  Also noticing a new intrusive thought convinced I’m losing my hearing.  And an increase in Dermatillomania.  It’s usually a thing that happens only when I’m at the end of my rope.

Books of the Session:  No One is Coming to Save Us and The Wages of Sin.

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My TMS Experience Days 8 & 9, also MD appointments

Day 8:  This was ok.  Pain was a little higher than the previous day.  Anna led the session.

Day 9:  Today really hurt for some reason.  Also I was sleepy, and kept on nodding off between sessions.  Bradley was my leader today.  So I’m so depressed and gloomy I can’t be optimistic, but I figure I can be grateful and fake cheer.  Today this led to me grinning before every shock.  I don;t even know sometimes.

I met with Dr. Ellis monday.  She tried to be emphatic that even if TMS doesn’t work, it’s not the last option.  Sigh.  She also wants to increase my Lamictal but wanted to check with Dr. Packer.  I also met with Hope yesterday.

I’m just so tired of feeling this way.  I miss the old me.

My TMS Experience: Day 7 (Day 1?)

I was finally able to go back for my TMS treatment today.  Bradley administered it.  It was a mixed bag:  it hurt, I sneezed a lot and my eyes watered.  I also bit my tongue my accident.  However, drinking Gatorade beforehand seems to have helped the headache, so that’s good.  Also, I got my pixie cut trimmed even closer than usual, and it helped with the hair pulling.

Book of the Session:  Juliet Takes a Breath by Gabby Rivera.

 

 

My TMS Experience: Day 6

Today I met with Dr Baer before the treatment.  I asked about rebound headaches.  He agreed they were a concern.  He suggested ibuprofen* before a treatment, and also gatorade for hydration.  I mentioned my feelings on TMS, namely that I hate it.  He said that people don;t see results until two or three weeks.  So basically I have no answers but I felt heard.  Sigh.

Today’s session was led by Bridget.  I once again used my own earplugs.  It was loud and unfun and it hurt.  Also, Bridget pulled my hair a lot putting on the cap, making my theory that product increases the pain more likely.

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Book of the Session: White Working Class by Joan C. Williams

*Ibuprofen gives me nosebleeds.  This should be fun!

My TMS Experience: Day 5

allergy-cold-disease-flu-41284I hated today’s session.  Today’s technician, Bradley, warned me that it might be worse because I’d had a few days off from the treatment.  It was.  I was able to use my own earplugs: apparently the noise reduction rating of 30 is what they aim for in noise reduction at the clinic.  I also tried a saline nose spray before, and my nose ran whilst my eye was watering.

I asked Bradley about rebound headaches and he said it would be likely.  Fucking awesome.  SO THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?  Maybe it’ll get better.  I hope Dr Baer sees me this week so I can ask him about it.

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Book of the Session:  I’m almost done with Chemistry by C.L Lynch.

My TMS Experience: Day 4

I have completed my first week of TMS treatment! Today’s session was also by Anna. She started my giving me my Beck inventory (I will be having them weekly on Fridays) The dentist chair had been moved, as had the desk.  Anna offered to get me a pillow for my left arm (right arm is twitching).  However, as my left arm is busy clutching the small stuffed cat I bring with me as well as my Kindle, I opted out.  I my eyes watered for most of the session.  I met the same woman with whom we had made small talk yesterday.

I asked Anna if there was anything I needed to know for the weekend.  She said either an increase or decrease in symptoms could occur and to email them if need be.

Book of this session:  My Fairygod Mother is a Drag Queen, got for free via Netgalley.

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