Day 8: This was ok. Pain was a little higher than the previous day. Anna led the session.
Day 9: Today really hurt for some reason. Also I was sleepy, and kept on nodding off between sessions. Bradley was my leader today. So I’m so depressed and gloomy I can’t be optimistic, but I figure I can be grateful and fake cheer. Today this led to me grinning before every shock. I don;t even know sometimes.
I met with Dr. Ellis monday. She tried to be emphatic that even if TMS doesn’t work, it’s not the last option. Sigh. She also wants to increase my Lamictal but wanted to check with Dr. Packer. I also met with Hope yesterday.
I’m just so tired of feeling this way. I miss the old me.