Day 13: Anna was my tech. It hurt, since I had had 3 days off. No sneezing, though. I asked Anna if I should be concerned about the fact I was menustrating and she said just to watch for mood swings and irritability….k.
Day 14: New Tech, Kylie. She was nice. More interactive than some. It still hurts. She reminded me I’m still in the early phase. ‘
No change in mood. Becoming frustrated. Also noticing a new intrusive thought convinced I’m losing my hearing. And an increase in Dermatillomania. It’s usually a thing that happens only when I’m at the end of my rope.
Books of the Session: No One is Coming to Save Us and The Wages of Sin.
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Day 8: This was ok. Pain was a little higher than the previous day. Anna led the session.
Day 9: Today really hurt for some reason. Also I was sleepy, and kept on nodding off between sessions. Bradley was my leader today. So I’m so depressed and gloomy I can’t be optimistic, but I figure I can be grateful and fake cheer. Today this led to me grinning before every shock. I don;t even know sometimes.
I met with Dr. Ellis monday. She tried to be emphatic that even if TMS doesn’t work, it’s not the last option. Sigh. She also wants to increase my Lamictal but wanted to check with Dr. Packer. I also met with Hope yesterday.
I’m just so tired of feeling this way. I miss the old me.
I have completed my first week of TMS treatment! Today’s session was also by Anna. She started my giving me my Beck inventory (I will be having them weekly on Fridays) The dentist chair had been moved, as had the desk. Anna offered to get me a pillow for my left arm (right arm is twitching). However, as my left arm is busy clutching the small stuffed cat I bring with me as well as my Kindle, I opted out. I my eyes watered for most of the session. I met the same woman with whom we had made small talk yesterday.
I asked Anna if there was anything I needed to know for the weekend. She said either an increase or decrease in symptoms could occur and to email them if need be.
Book of this session: My Fairygod Mother is a Drag Queen, got for free via Netgalley.
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On Day 2, I had Anna, rather than Bridget. We were also in a smaller room, which had a softer chair. Putting my cap on hurt less, I don;t know if it was because I skipped hair product or not. We did the daily evaluation where you get to put your mood, your caffeine and alcohol intakes. This session was better: slightly less painful, no sneezing. I still don;t like it though.
Day 3 Anna and I were back in the first room. Went through the daily check in. It started. And then the sneezes started. Then the watering eye (on the side receiving treatment). I was also dozing off because I barely slept last night. So I was just in a bad mood: I still feel depressed. I am so tired of this feeling.
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